I am in this place of waiting. This place of absolute stillness. A stillness-almost like a void- that would frustrate me if I didn't have this deep sense of God working on something. He is up to something. Since my trip to Jekyll Island I have known He was doing something new.
Forget the former things. Do not dwell on the past.
For I AM starting up a new thing. Now it is springing up.
Do you not perceive it?
I Am making a way in the desert, and streams in the wasteland.
Is 41:18-19
Those were His words to me in the spring of this year. Those were His promises to my hurting heart. In the time that has passed since then I have been taken into a deeper relationship of faith and prayer. I guess I still don't see the "thing" that He is up to...but I have grown into this most awesome relationship with the Lord.. but, you know, that relationship just might be the very thing He was starting! How exciting is that? From where I'm sitting there really isn't anything I would trade today for the relationship that He has brought me to. I guess I would exchange y life with the Lord for my kids to have one like this with Him, but I rest in the truth that they belong to Him and no one can snatch them out of His hand. And they are in His hand.
So I sit still in my heart. A heart that used to cry out "Fix it!" and wonder at the things He is teaching me...knowing that He is God.
Be still and know that I AM God. (Ps 46:10)
10/26/07 This is the journal entry that caused me to start writing them on my blog. It's been almost 2 years to the day that I made this entry. Today I am absolutely sure of the "new thing", and while I rejoice in that deeper relationship He began to build with me in 2004, that was definitely the foundation of the things He has planned for me before time began. Not only do I SEE the new thing springing up, but I'm LIVING the new thing. Nothing short of raising my kiddos has brought me such joy.
