Today

I'm tired today. It might be because of that long, long drive from Mankato, MN yesterday (if you like....farmland...take a long drive through the state of Iowa). But I think I'm tired from other things as well.
I'm tired of the rain.
I'm tired of the cold.
I'm tired of watching softball in football weather.
I'm tired of walking on eggshells.
I'm tired of always saying something wrong.
I'm tired of my heart hurting.
I'm just tired.
I want to crawl in a hole with my Friend and spend the week.
A nice warm, dry, sunshiny week.
I'm tired of ants.
Of messy bathrooms and unmade beds.
Why doesn't this craft room stay straightened?
Why does the wireless Internet thingy continue to not want to co-operate????
Why does the price of fuel continue to soar?

I know there is an absolute truth in the Word that I should be focusing on.
I know there is a way out from under these trials...God promises there is.
But today? I'm also tired of trying to work at resting in Him.
Today I'm just gonna be tired. I'm gonna give myself permission to not make the bed (oh, wait, I already did that)
Today I'm gonna give myself permission to let the ants have a party. (Oh, wait, I've already done that)
Well, today I'm just not going to use the Internet...oh, bummer (I'm already doing that)

Shoot. Today. It's half over. I'm going for a run. Maybe I'll feel better when I get back.